Friday, November 21, 2008

Life Is A Bitch!

I really hate to be negative, but this whole being grown thing is not all it's cracked up to be. Coming into my own has been a series of lessons, hardships and pains... Now on the positive side, having the freedom to do what I want to do when I want to do it is a blessing, but there is only so much that can be done when your money is funny.. which brings me to what I REALLY want to vent about.. what career move should I take?

I've been in the military for the past 8 years. I am a SGT who is trying to make that next rank (and pretty close to it I may add.) but as the years have went by, I 've realized that this is NOT what I REALLY want to do with my life. But it's hard to walk away from something that you're comfortable with. It seems to almost be like a marriage, even though I've never been. It's a sure thing, I know it through and through, and it will be with me for the rest of my life if things go as they have been.

But again like I've said, there are other things that I would love to do... I want to express my creative side more. I get the most joy our of beautifying things. Be it makeup artistry, doing hair, interior design or fashion. I love it, love it, love it.

But I am more of an introvert and these careers require quite a bit of networking. I try to use the cosmos (for all my astrology fans out there!) to help me with the necessary skills that I lack, but it can be daunting at times... which is how I'm feeling today.

There is a Jupiter-Saturn connection that brings maturity and a proper sense of proportion for making a big plan that can be effectively executed. Jupiter is about optimism and Saturn is about reality and both are in earth signs (practicality) which are providing a good framework for advancing my career or taking on a major project...

So I say to myself, you've got to use this time to figure out what your next career move is going to be, and what direction are you trying to go in?

I'm so tired of feeling like if I don't spread my wings now I'll live in regret, but then I feel insecure about walking away from something that can be a better things in the long run.

So what do you men and ladies think? I need your help. I'm leaning more towards staying in the Army, I can knock out 10 more years and then really get into what I'd rather do later on.... but I do want kids and a family and it will be SO hard trying to juggle both of those at the same time. So please ket me know how you would handle this situation.... Thanks.

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