Tuesday, September 30, 2008
... I'm trying to find legal, creative ways to get paid... Applying synthetic eyelashes is going to be my next big hustle... Get your own idea!!! Lol, but honestly, the eyes are the most expressive and appealing part of the face, IMHO, and if you bring them out with the right lashes.. you won't even need to wear makeup! I do it often and it's great! (Btw, don't go to MAC and get them done, I hear they come off after a few days!)If you're in the Tampa/Clearwater/St.Pete Area, drop me a line, I'll have you batting them bad boys all day long! ..I'd add pictures of myself on here, but I'm at work, so I'll have to follow up later.
Posted by Unknown at 6:18 AM
You know... I've never had so many feelings of joy, feelings of shame and ridicule... of just pure HURT from ANYONE the way that I had it yesterday!!
I put myself in a position for said person to talk SO reckless to me.... to tell me things that hurt my heart and even my soul SO badly I can't believe I'm able to express this right now without breaking into tears....
I tried to make things right with someone who had no intentions of forgiving me. Months ago I made a silly move from insecurity. Then I confessed. Silly Silly Silly Me.... I have been putting myself through hell since then, for the majority of this year, everything happend around Feb/Mar...
Th end of '07 and beginning of '08 was tasting so sweet... I just knew this year was going to be all of that.. and then all of a sudden those old feelings of being taken for granted and not receiving what I was putting into the relationship rose again. Am I too emotional? I told myself no, you're not trippin', and so this time I did me.... and went a bit further than I usually do. We had issues similar to this before. We got over them (I guess) and eventually things faded over time, we lost touch... I expressed my dislikes before I did what I did then, but I wasn't convinced even afterwards, looking back. I should've just left him alone.
But then he found me. On MySpace. I didn't even do MySpace but something was telling me to get a page.... I really should've just kept doing me and kept it friendly. Especially since I haven't got anywhere, I have made NO progress since then. What a shame. Our relationship would go up and then it would go right back down. I felt like he didn't like me as a person. Like I was so fucked up for treating someone who had shown me more love than my own damn father.... like I did. But I didn't feel like he did enough. I wasn't receiving as much as I thought I should have. And I still don't. So things fell apart.
I hate him now. I found out so many things that I didn't want to kow that were way worse than what I've ever even thought about! And my mind wanders!!
.....What's funny is that we're very similar. I get where he's coming from... I couldn't ever trust him again after what I "thought" was going on when we were in Germany and then what I found out to be true recently. SO why should I want him to do those things for me?
Because I'm worth it goddamnit.
And if this person won't ever see me the same without some sort of divine intervention, then so be it. I refuse to keep going through the ringer.
I have too many other things that I have to do. Goodbye You.
Posted by Unknown at 2:48 AM
Thursday, September 25, 2008
I am so frustrated with this recession... I just heard when I came into work tonight that Washington Mutual folded and was bought out by JP Morgan & Chase...that is SCARY to say the least... and the stagnation of our two presidential candidates! This debate MUST occur, substantial feedback is very necessary, especially with November 4th right around the corner! They need to get asked some REAL questions by REAL people.... It just amazes me to see how our country is heading towards... what some have called the New World Order. Many of you have heard of it, and so have I, but trust me when I tell you that it's definitely unfolding before our eyes!!! If we don't wake up and start paying attnetion to what's going on around us, we will definitely be stuck in this society and won't even know what has hit us... the sad thing is I really don't have much of an idea on how we can make a difference in spite of the inevitable,.. I have a good friend who has the most beautiful mind... and his ideology is growing to where he will counter the oncoming, in a way that is good for people of color, and the common person who does not have any say so in the fate of our nation and planet... what we must do in the meantime is educate ourselves and become more marketable so that whe they start closing out these businesses and credit files, we will have some wits and experience about ourselves to support our families and our lifestyles... I shouldn't be afraid to get out of the Army right now but I have to be honest, I am. I don't know what things will be like in a year but I would just feel better if I stayed in and did the long haul. In between now and then I will have come up with something that will make my future easier and brighter, I don't have anyone else to depend on, and the government cannot be fucked with at the end of the day, so... I guess I'll have to do what I have to do even if I don't agree with it. Let's just hope that thins get better for a while before they get worse.... 2012 y'all. I'll hip y'all to that next time. In the meantime, look at the New World Order, the book of Daniel and Revelations, and what the hell is going on right outside of your front door!!!!
Posted by Unknown at 11:35 PM
Monday, September 22, 2008
Sunday, September 21, 2008
I thought that if I began to let my words flow freely every time I come here to share and express with whomever is out there... that I will generate the feedback and visits that I desire because... I feel like I'm talking to myself!! Where are my fellow bloggers?? (Sigh) I'll just have to figure out a way to get into the right circles and then the networking can commence... In the meantime, I'm going to start my own business, y'all. I'll give you the details later, wish me luck!!!
Posted by Unknown at 5:54 AM
Friday, September 19, 2008
What in the world??? I mean, the bride of frankenstein hair, the african pride pick w/ the oxymoronic seal of the US on it, the flag scarification/tattoo on her chest... and then having her breasts are exposed?! Has any potential first lady ever been negatively portrayed in this way?? ... What is wrong with this white man?? Some guy named Daniel Edwards created this... its titled "Michelle Obama's Makeover for America", & will go on display at New York's Leo Kesting Gallery at the start of October 2008. Unbelievable.
Posted by Unknown at 5:52 AM
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
I thought it'd be a great idea to generate some discussion by having a monthly post of things that are questionable to most, or maybe just me... feel free to leave a comment either way!!!
Why is it that most wars are in the name of religion, but yet its morally wrong to kill in all religious doctrine?
Why are we so influenced by what we see on tv? We know it's fake!!
Why isn't lyrical content really weighed in hip hop, as far as its effects on the majority of its listeners??
Why are people being force-fed a new drug on every other commercial?? ANd why is there always a "z" or a "v" in its name??
Why is a sexy, good-looking, successful, trustworthy BLACK man so hard to find???
When am I going to win the lottery?? =)
Posted by Unknown at 4:23 AM
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
...stays on my mind! I have to admit, my hustle game is not up to standard, but it's definitely in progress! I'm thinking about money more than anything lately, it's my security blanket, my man, my best friend..... Forget about people, all I need is money. I'm so internally self-sufficient that I can go without the relationships that I've been missing in my life.... if they happen, great, if not, I'm cool too. I like my own company, thank you. I'll go anywhere by myself, joke to myself even, whatever, it's nothing, lol. Some things are better with people, but I'm not going to continue to surround myself with leeches and lames... Anyway, now back to the money!!!
Posted by Unknown at 1:40 AM
Sunday, September 7, 2008
We've been told time and again through our respective religions that the Rapture is coming! Watch Out! We will be judged in the end! Repent!! If you're like me and you don't go to church, but you are interested in the fate of this planet and its people, (which you should be , because where else are you going to go if some shit goes down??) ...you may have stumbled upon or researched some unconventional information such as the Mayan Prophecy of 2012.... I've read many books in my lifetime, I looove researching conspiracy theories... but this book touched me and frightened me so much: arbara Hand Clow's "The Mayan Code: Time Acceleration and Awakening the World Mind." In it, she breaks down the time scale and what will happen during each age... every year was broken down from the beginning of time, according to their civilization, and research has proved their prophecies to be true!! For instance, they predicted the coming of the white man in the 16th century... the Industrial Age and the Information Age that we are now in.... something else that was eery to me were the similarities of the Mayan peoples to the Egyptians, from not only the pyramids, but their burials and high appreciation for mathematics and science.... unfortunately we'd have a lot more information on what they were forewarning us about and how they came up with the information that they did if it weren't for filthy ass Europeans coming and destroying everything..... I mean, it angers and saddens me at the same time.... because what were they trying to hide?? Not to write a novel here but, they wanted to control those people and in order to do that you must break one all the way down so that you can build them back up into what YOU want them to be... but if it's not to help them, if it's not for the better of the whole... but for greed and lust and other selfish desires.... then you're NEGATIVE. i.e, DEVILISH, inhumane and light is always shed on that! (More on that later) ... I understand that everyone cannot be 100% positive. Positivity wouldn't even exist without negativity..... Just like there wouldn't be a need for a savior if we didn't have the devil... so one cannot exist without the other... just like a yin yang... they are both NECESSARY for survival. Think about that. Figure out what you are and what you need to be doing to create BALANCE in your life....
Posted by Unknown at 2:00 AM
Thursday, September 4, 2008
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Posted by Unknown at 9:48 AM