Do You Have A Side Hustle?

... I'm trying to find legal, creative ways to get paid... Applying synthetic eyelashes is going to be my next big hustle... Get your own idea!!! Lol, but honestly, the eyes are the most expressive and appealing part of the face, IMHO, and if you bring them out with the right lashes.. you won't even need to wear makeup! I do it often and it's great! (Btw, don't go to MAC and get them done, I hear they come off after a few days!)If you're in the Tampa/Clearwater/St.Pete Area, drop me a line, I'll have you batting them bad boys all day long! ..I'd add pictures of myself on here, but I'm at work, so I'll have to follow up later.

I HATE YOU FOREVER, AND LOVE TOO!!!

You know... I've never had so many feelings of joy, feelings of shame and ridicule... of just pure HURT from ANYONE the way that I had it yesterday!!
I put myself in a position for said person to talk SO reckless to me.... to tell me things that hurt my heart and even my soul SO badly I can't believe I'm able to express this right now without breaking into tears....

I tried to make things right with someone who had no intentions of forgiving me. Months ago I made a silly move from insecurity. Then I confessed. Silly Silly Silly Me.... I have been putting myself through hell since then, for the majority of this year, everything happend around Feb/Mar...

Th end of '07 and beginning of '08 was tasting so sweet... I just knew this year was going to be all of that.. and then all of a sudden those old feelings of being taken for granted and not receiving what I was putting into the relationship rose again. Am I too emotional? I told myself no, you're not trippin', and so this time I did me.... and went a bit further than I usually do. We had issues similar to this before. We got over them (I guess) and eventually things faded over time, we lost touch... I expressed my dislikes before I did what I did then, but I wasn't convinced even afterwards, looking back. I should've just left him alone.

But then he found me. On MySpace. I didn't even do MySpace but something was telling me to get a page.... I really should've just kept doing me and kept it friendly. Especially since I haven't got anywhere, I have made NO progress since then. What a shame. Our relationship would go up and then it would go right back down. I felt like he didn't like me as a person. Like I was so fucked up for treating someone who had shown me more love than my own damn father.... like I did. But I didn't feel like he did enough. I wasn't receiving as much as I thought I should have. And I still don't. So things fell apart.

I hate him now. I found out so many things that I didn't want to kow that were way worse than what I've ever even thought about! And my mind wanders!!

.....What's funny is that we're very similar. I get where he's coming from... I couldn't ever trust him again after what I "thought" was going on when we were in Germany and then what I found out to be true recently. SO why should I want him to do those things for me?

Because I'm worth it goddamnit.

And if this person won't ever see me the same without some sort of divine intervention, then so be it. I refuse to keep going through the ringer.

I have too many other things that I have to do. Goodbye You.

New World Order??

I am so frustrated with this recession... I just heard when I came into work tonight that Washington Mutual folded and was bought out by JP Morgan & Chase...that is SCARY to say the least... and the stagnation of our two presidential candidates! This debate MUST occur, substantial feedback is very necessary, especially with November 4th right around the corner! They need to get asked some REAL questions by REAL people.... It just amazes me to see how our country is heading towards... what some have called the New World Order. Many of you have heard of it, and so have I, but trust me when I tell you that it's definitely unfolding before our eyes!!! If we don't wake up and start paying attnetion to what's going on around us, we will definitely be stuck in this society and won't even know what has hit us... the sad thing is I really don't have much of an idea on how we can make a difference in spite of the inevitable,.. I have a good friend who has the most beautiful mind... and his ideology is growing to where he will counter the oncoming, in a way that is good for people of color, and the common person who does not have any say so in the fate of our nation and planet... what we must do in the meantime is educate ourselves and become more marketable so that whe they start closing out these businesses and credit files, we will have some wits and experience about ourselves to support our families and our lifestyles... I shouldn't be afraid to get out of the Army right now but I have to be honest, I am. I don't know what things will be like in a year but I would just feel better if I stayed in and did the long haul. In between now and then I will have come up with something that will make my future easier and brighter, I don't have anyone else to depend on, and the government cannot be fucked with at the end of the day, so... I guess I'll have to do what I have to do even if I don't agree with it. Let's just hope that thins get better for a while before they get worse.... 2012 y'all. I'll hip y'all to that next time. In the meantime, look at the New World Order, the book of Daniel and Revelations, and what the hell is going on right outside of your front door!!!!

Pierre Hardy!!

I'm not getting paid to advertise for this fool, lol, but I had to showcase a few of his creations because they are just... electric. Hope you like!!

Thoughts.

I thought that if I began to let my words flow freely every time I come here to share and express with whomever is out there... that I will generate the feedback and visits that I desire because... I feel like I'm talking to myself!! Where are my fellow bloggers?? (Sigh) I'll just have to figure out a way to get into the right circles and then the networking can commence... In the meantime, I'm going to start my own business, y'all. I'll give you the details later, wish me luck!!!

The Bust of Who? Michelle Obama?

What in the world??? I mean, the bride of frankenstein hair, the african pride pick w/ the oxymoronic seal of the US on it, the flag scarification/tattoo on her chest... and then having her breasts are exposed?! Has any potential first lady ever been negatively portrayed in this way?? ... What is wrong with this white man?? Some guy named Daniel Edwards created this... its titled "Michelle Obama's Makeover for America", & will go on display at New York's Leo Kesting Gallery at the start of October 2008. Unbelievable.

Things that make you go hmmmmm......

I thought it'd be a great idea to generate some discussion by having a monthly post of things that are questionable to most, or maybe just me... feel free to leave a comment either way!!!

Why is it that most wars are in the name of religion, but yet its morally wrong to kill in all religious doctrine?

Why are we so influenced by what we see on tv? We know it's fake!!

Why isn't lyrical content really weighed in hip hop, as far as its effects on the majority of its listeners??

Why are people being force-fed a new drug on every other commercial?? ANd why is there always a "z" or a "v" in its name??

Why is a sexy, good-looking, successful, trustworthy BLACK man so hard to find???

When am I going to win the lottery?? =)

L-O-V-E

When it finds you, you know it.... It hits you harder than a bag of bricks! There's nothing you can do to make it go away when it hurts so bad. No medicine, except for the person that caused you the pain..... I hate love right now.

Money

...stays on my mind! I have to admit, my hustle game is not up to standard, but it's definitely in progress! I'm thinking about money more than anything lately, it's my security blanket, my man, my best friend..... Forget about people, all I need is money. I'm so internally self-sufficient that I can go without the relationships that I've been missing in my life.... if they happen, great, if not, I'm cool too. I like my own company, thank you. I'll go anywhere by myself, joke to myself even, whatever, it's nothing, lol. Some things are better with people, but I'm not going to continue to surround myself with leeches and lames... Anyway, now back to the money!!!

The END Is Nigh

We've been told time and again through our respective religions that the Rapture is coming! Watch Out! We will be judged in the end! Repent!! If you're like me and you don't go to church, but you are interested in the fate of this planet and its people, (which you should be , because where else are you going to go if some shit goes down??) ...you may have stumbled upon or researched some unconventional information such as the Mayan Prophecy of 2012.... I've read many books in my lifetime, I looove researching conspiracy theories... but this book touched me and frightened me so much: arbara Hand Clow's "The Mayan Code: Time Acceleration and Awakening the World Mind." In it, she breaks down the time scale and what will happen during each age... every year was broken down from the beginning of time, according to their civilization, and research has proved their prophecies to be true!! For instance, they predicted the coming of the white man in the 16th century... the Industrial Age and the Information Age that we are now in.... something else that was eery to me were the similarities of the Mayan peoples to the Egyptians, from not only the pyramids, but their burials and high appreciation for mathematics and science.... unfortunately we'd have a lot more information on what they were forewarning us about and how they came up with the information that they did if it weren't for filthy ass Europeans coming and destroying everything..... I mean, it angers and saddens me at the same time.... because what were they trying to hide?? Not to write a novel here but, they wanted to control those people and in order to do that you must break one all the way down so that you can build them back up into what YOU want them to be... but if it's not to help them, if it's not for the better of the whole... but for greed and lust and other selfish desires.... then you're NEGATIVE. i.e, DEVILISH, inhumane and light is always shed on that! (More on that later) ... I understand that everyone cannot be 100% positive. Positivity wouldn't even exist without negativity..... Just like there wouldn't be a need for a savior if we didn't have the devil... so one cannot exist without the other... just like a yin yang... they are both NECESSARY for survival. Think about that. Figure out what you are and what you need to be doing to create BALANCE in your life....

SUPPORT!!!

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Stay In or GET OUT???

So I'm REALLY thinking about getting out the Army soon, I swear I change my mind every other day... one of the main reasons I'm against it is that I don't want to have to alter my lifestyle and struggle... or be making it but not having enough excess... the economy hasn't been looking or acting at its best lately.... I have to be able to indulge... to shop and add a little luxury or splurge. At least once a week, something. It's bad, but it's about what I want right now since I'm not married (YET) nor do I have children (YET) Both of which scare me, but anyway... In the meantime I'm working on my money management and also how to get more of it so that if I do go ahead and get out, I'll still be able to do me like the Army has been, and eventually better of course. I just don't have a lot of patience and being that school will take about a rough 10 more years to complete (ya girl is going for her doctorate, it's not a game!!!!) I say to myself, well you can be damn near retired in that same amount of time without having to do anything major... plus you can go back to Germany and have a business on the side!!! I just don't know y'all. Please give me some feedback. Most people are telling me to stay in, but my heart is telling me something different. My mind is on the fence like security (staying in) vs. opportunity (getting out).

Cute Work Out Fits...

Michael Kors, one of my favorite designers....

When I used to work at Macy's, I was over the Michael Kors, Alfani, Lauren by Ralph Lauren, and Liz Claiborne areas... I was a little salty that I was in "Women's Wear" instead of the "THISISIT" department, but I came to appreciate Micahel Kors and so I wanted to share a few bags and other things I liked from his web site because not too many people are up on him yet. Hope you like...

My Unique Mane

Rosemary Mint Shampoo with Sea Moss, 8 oz.
Black Vanilla Leave-In Conditioner, 8 oz.
Lisa’s Hair Elixir, 8 oz.
Hair Milk, 4 oz.
Mimosa Hair Honey, 4 oz.

~Carol's Daughter~

Good Stuff.

So, I've decided to grow my hair out... even though I never liked doing my hair, I've always been tender-headed and wished for wash-n-go hair... but now I want to try all kinds of different styles, and actually TAKE CARE of it, (instead of wearing braids forever and then chopping it off and wearing it short, over and over again.)

I've been reading up on how to grow out black hair and using products that are made FUBU, (you know for us, by us) because WE are the only ones blessed with the type of hair that we have, so it only makes sense, right? Right. I believe tha if we pretty much leave our hair alone, it'll grow, in a nutshell. Think about it!!

Now, I have Type 4 Hair. Yeah, its a coarse/curl factor in the 4 stages of hair (1 being super straight like Asians, all the way to our tight curls, 4) and basically pretty much all black people have Type 4, unless you have Indian in yo family, lol.....

Anyway, it's important to CAREFULLY select the products that we use on our hair. We know moisture is a necessity!!! Because many of the creams and lotions are primarily WATER-based, which doesn't do anything but entice our natural curl, right? That's why you don't see too many sistas at the pool!!! So take the time to READ the ingredients, check out how much petroleum jelly and mineral oil is in your product. Because keeping our hair up is expensive, isn't it ladies? I mean, I enjoy the endless creative things we can do with our hair,.. but I'm about saving my money for that new Marc Jacobs bag!!

So since I'm not bold enough to go for that au-naturale look ahora -right now-, (although I have always fancied growing out locks and will probably do so when I get pregnant, I will NOT put a relaxer in my hair!) I want to have a bit of length so that when I become FREE, (as in out of the restrictive military) I can play with color, and all the cool up-do's that I see. I'm not a big weave fan either... maybe a ponytail when I'm stepping out, or a wig with a hat... (basically something I can take off quickly afterwards) other then that I'm wearing my own hair, thank you.

So keep it wrapped up and your hands out of it, y'all. And if you're going through the trial and error of products that just aren't making it happen for you, olive and coconut oil get the job done... and ask for samples, they have them!!! I use coconut oil because not only can you cook with it, but you can use it as a lotion, or a hair dress, AND it smells good!!!

Hey Y'all!!!!

It's been a little over a week, and I've been out of town as I previously posted, I had to do some research on where I'll be moving to and attending school before I get out of the Army, and Texas is where I was before I joined, SO I thought I'd go back there and reap the benefits of joining from that state. (Free School!!!)

I went to San Antonio and Dallas and checked out some apartments and campuses and I was REALLY impressed with UTSA's campus, let me tell you!!! They had pretty much all brand new facilities, an outdoor pool with all the trimmings like the backboard and hoops, plenty palm trees with the lights strung through, I mean, just a gorgeous, social-enhancing place-to-be right there on campus!! There's a Starbucks on campus, a bunch of other restaurants... you can get personal trainers because there's a lot of Kinesiology majors there.... I'm getting bigger and bigger on working out, staying healthy and fit, so this was looking like heaven to me!!!

The only thing I was NOT impressed with is the actual city. Now again, I used to live in San Antonio, and consider it home, but I was more impressionable back when so I had to go back and check it out as a grown woman.... it really isn't the place where I want to be because it doesn't have enough variety, the mexican flavor is cool, but I don't like being overwhelmed with it, probably why i don't like Florida either, the whole island thing is all looking blended to me now.... BUT on the flip side, San Antonio has a moderate tempo, the military and medical fields are BOOMIN'out there, it's comfortable to me being that I know the area and people there already, the cost of living is low.... I'm thinking, maybe this is the better place to go INITIALLY to get FOCUSED.

I'm not going to go into detail on Dallas as much, I checked out UTD and UNTD, but none of the campuses had me hooked like UTSA. Even though they fare a bit better than UTSA in academic ranking... but the traffic and gray skies tend to turn me off... I'm a sunshine girl now!!


I had to be honest with myself, big cities and I don't mix too well when it's time to handle business. I need space and quiet for that. I went to college in Atlanta and I definitely had one too many distractions going on!! Not to say that I haven't grown immensely since then!! Right now I feel like you can put me right in the middle of Times Square and I could still have my face deep inside of a book, concentrating..... ok, maybe not that air tight yet, lol!!

But this is my ambition, I need to really lift my grades and I don't want to work for at least a year so that it'll be that much easier for me to focus.... you guys this is a dream come true for me, really! This new GI Bill is the BOMB! I'm actually soooo glad that I joined the military now, no expensive ass college loans for me to be paying back!!!

I always wanted to go to a big university but I had too many problems going on around me to stay focused on that path. I got lazy, and into boys and just totally off track after my freshman year in high school... so this is my opportunity to redeem that dream and just enjoy it to the fullest!


I can't help but think though... I'll be 28 going in a a senior in college... I wonder if the majority of my classmates will be young as hell... Yeah.


Oh well. I'm doing it anyway, and ya girl is blessed enough to not look a day over 23, you better believe it!!! Ttyl.

She's Ba-ack!!!

Hey!! I missed y'all!! I'm back from Texas, and I have so many things to share that I learned & experienced there!! I'm prepping for Hurricane Funky Ass Fay as of late, and handling other business because school started this week, but I'll be sure to fill you all in just as soon as I can. Mwah!!!

Back 2 Texas!!!

Hey y'all!!! I'll be out of town for the next week, I'm going to Dallas and San Antonio, TEXAS to see which city is best for me to put roots in!!! I'm so excited, and can't wait to make the move next year!

Dallas has MANY IT jobs (my field) large universities and fortune 500 companies, so those markets are plentiful, which is a must (and is the reason why I didn't go with Houston).... plus they're the more sophisticated major city in Texas...

San Antonio is a beautiful city (MUCH better looking than Dallas) with a lot of government jobs available because of the military presence... (my background. But it may be a bit too slow for me, and not diverse enough for my liking. (I used to live there and it wasn't necessarily my cup of tea at the time, but now that I'm older, maybe I can appreciate its pace...)

So, I'll be back in a litle over a week & I'll share my findings with you then!!!


Be good.

Accessories... Essentials to looking Fabulous!

Can't have a complete outfit without accessories, right?? Well I stumbled upon this cute Juicy purse & the silver one is by Betsey Johnson, shoes by Bebe, tees by Juicy, heels by BCBG, everything else by Arden B.....

I'll categorize them by type from now on, k??? A little short on time...